Saturday, November 13, 2010

Now we wait

Just to give everyone a little update:

My last post sounded so full of wisdom, so full of confidence; confidence I wasn't feeling all the time. I told the Man about how I was trying to be strong on the outside, but on the inside...

I'm still 
a mess. 

When we had the conversation, he actually finished my sentence for me. Perfectly. I'm so glad I have him around.

Anyway, I had the amniocentesis done yesterday. It really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I didn't watch. (I'm sure most of you are thinking, well duh. Who would want to watch a needle get stuck in you??) Normally, I'm not squeemish about that kind of thing. No, for reals. I watch when I get my blood drawn. It's just not a big deal to me.

But this time, I didn't watch.

And it really wasn't bad. No numbing, nothin. And the Ladybug cooperated beautifully. She held very still.
And I got a sparkly band-aid.

Now for the hard part: waiting. Praying. Clinging with my fingertips to that hope. Trying to put off my own selfish desires, my pride and vanity, and make every last effort to accept God's will.

Confession: I hate this. I want this over with. I want my baby, healthy and whole, in my arms.
But for now, I must wait. Results will come in some time next week.

Oh, and P.S.
Today is my wonderful, amazing, Grandma-of-the-year, supportive, and beautiful Mother's birthday. You can find her blog here. Happy Birthday, Mama!!! I love you so much!!!


Saimi said...

Hoping and praying with you!!

Regardless of the outcome, babies are a gift from God. The ones that need extra help just means God has placed His faith in YOU to care for his special child.

Hang in there!!

Unknown said...

Praying right along with you!

alpinekleins said...

You and your mom certainly both emulate each other's best qualities - like mother like daughter :) I'll be on pins and needles also waiting to hear your results.